Saturday, January 30, 2010

A Better Person

Yesterday was the first anniversary of my Grandfather's death. It was kind of a rough day. We were supposed to get together and celebrate his life and my cousin's birthday, but the weather prevented us from doing that. Ella, Mom and I had a wonderful time together, but I still felt as if I was missing something. I wanted to be with my sisters and the rest of my family.
My Grandpa was such a special person. He was kind, and gentle. He loved his family very much. He had the most beautiful voice that he used to lift up those around him and to sing praises to the One who created him! He was honest and trustworthy. If he said something you knew that he meant it and if he promised something he would always follow through.
He taught us to love serving people at a very young age. He and my Grandma went on Commision Unto Mexico each year after Christmas. He was the physician and a very good one at that! He loved people and wanted to meet them where they were at. When I was in the seventh grade they took me with them and in turn each cousin after that. I will never forget the people that I met and the ways that we were able to help others. I think that this is a big reason that all of us older cousins spent several months serving overseas during college and why relationship and service is still important to us.
He loved to make waffles for us on Sunday mornings. He loved his farm. He loved his animals.He loved his music. He loved vanilla wafers. He loved Jesus and he loved his family. He would always read us the Christmas story before we opened presents. I remember the last time that he was able to read it for us and I remember crying later knowing that it would be the last time that he would be able to do that.
He was a brilliant man! He was the first person at the University of Oklahoma to recieve his PhD and MD at the same time. He was very wise and many people over the years went to him seeking advice.
The week that he passed away was a very difficult, long week. We spent quite a lot of it sleeping on the floor of his nursing home room, reading, and just simply being together. That was the important part. We were together. On the morning that he died we sang songs that he loved and prayed and asked God to welcome him and to take care of him for us. His viewing and funeral were a testament to his life. There were so many people that loved him and supported us.
My Grandmother is a rock. I know that this has been a very hard year for her and I wish that I could have been with her in person today. My Grandpa was in part who he was because of her. She supported him in everything that he did and loved him more than I have seen a person love another. The entire time that he was in the nursing home she was by his side, even when he didn't know where he was or what was going on around him. She has set for each of us an example of how marriage works and the sacrifices that we sometimes have to make.
My Dad is very much like my Grandpa in so many ways. They are so consistent and so solid. I hope someday to be half of the person that my Dad and Grandpa are/were. I have been working so hard lately to improve my attitude and to simply be content with my life, even in the tough times. I want to be consistent and loving, and bite my tongue before saying things about others or hurting those around me. I want to have a renewed passion for service and for community. I want those around me to know that I am different, in a good way! I want to support my husband, even in the rough times. I want my husband and daughter to know that I love them more than anything or anyone else. So here's the deal. I am going to do the best that I can. My Grandpa wasn't perfect, but he did work hard and loved those around him. I can't do everything, but I sure can try to be a better person every day.

The weather outside is frightful!

What do you do on a snow day, or two? Well I feel we accomplished a lot these past couple of days.
I perfected my knock-off Hostess cupcakes. I made them for our family get together for tonight that we didn't have because of the weather. They are very tasty!

I watched an the entire first season of Glee in 24 hours. I love it!


I ran five miles each day on the treadmill. I wanted to run outside today in the snow, but it never stopped snowing and I decided that running in snow up to my shins was not the best plan.

We played outside in the snow, did a little sledding in the yard. There is a nice inch of ice under the now foot of snow. It sounds like you are walking across creaky boards. It is very quiet otherwise, very eerie!



We also cut Ella's hair!




Ella was very excited about her bag of hair!



We were both greatful to Nonna for cutting Ella's hair!


Thursday, January 21, 2010

And now we wait...

We finally got all of Jimmie's Post Doc applications in the mail yesterday! We sent them to the East Coast and the West Coast. Nothing like not knowing which side of the country we are going to live on.
We are both a little nervous and very excited. We have A LOT to do before we wrap things up here. We are working on getting rid of about half of our belongings and at the same time fixing our house up to sell it in EEEK MARCH!
These last five years have been a roller coaster ride. We have had good times and bad and have learned a lot about what it means to be married and be parents. Jimmie has obviously learned a lot about Chemistry and has decided that he would like to teach and do research after his Post Doc. I have had several jobs while here. I now know what kind of nurse I want to be and how to be more assertive in that role. :) Ella has grown from a baby that just eats and sleeps to a very fun, energetic and talkative little person. While it is tiring sometimes, we enjoy every day that we have with her! We have grown so much closer as a family. We love this place and would stay here to raise our children if we could.
But alas, we must move on! So now we wait to see where that will be!

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Just Monkey'n Around

It has already been a long winter. Though it is melting, we still have several inches of snow in our yard. That has limited our fun activities and Ella has been getting restless from being inside so much. We normally spend a lot of time outdoors. I felt it was time to redirect some of Ella's energy.
Tonight Ella, Avery and I went to Little Monkey Bizness. Of course in the rush to get out of the house I forgot the camera, so I don't have any pictures, but the girls had a great time! From the moment we got in the car they were excited. We drove through McDonald's for Happy Meals and at the window they both screamed "IT'S OUR FOOOOD!!!"
When we arrived we had to wait for a few minutes to fill out waivers and pay and I thought they would crawl up the wall they were so excited. Monkey Bizness has lots of things for them to climb, jump on, throw things into, crawl in and so much more. They also have an art room and a dress up area. Surprisingly the girls didn't want to do either of those things so they just played and they played hard!
I was very proud of Ella. She did something that she couldn't do the last time that we were there. On one of the jungle gym type structures there is a tower with a series of platforms. Each landing has a square cut out of it that the kids have to climb through and pull themselves up on to get to the next level. Last time Ella was either too short or not strong enough and could not pull herself up. This time she was a bit timid at first and needed a boost, but caught on very quickly and spent quite a lot of time in the tower. It helps that you have to climb it to get to the biggest slide. :) The slide was very smooth and fast and the girls REALLY enjoyed going down very fast on their tummies!
Overall it was a very fun experience and I was very proud of the girls for their good behavior. We will definitely be going back!

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Jesus Lubs Me

I am a singer, so I should not be shocked that my daughter has taken to singing ALL THE TIME! She usually makes up her own songs and tunes. Most of the time she just says several words over and over again and modulates her voice. For instance this week was my sisters' birthday. They both heard VERY different renditions of the birthday song! I thought it would be fun to post some of the lyrics to her songs.

Now you all may find this weird, but I love the Beatles and so I always sing All My Loving to her when trying to get her to sleep. Her version goes a bit like this:
Close your eyes, kiss you, tomorrow I miss you, Remember, Remember, Close your eyes
ALL MY LOVIN, I GIVE YOU, ALL MY LOVIN, ALL MY LOVIN, ALL MY LOVIN
Close your eyes

Jesus Loves Me:
Jesus Lubs Me, Jesus Lubs Me, Yes, Jesus Lubs me
The Bible tells me, Yes, Jesus Lubs Me

She also likes to make songs up and here are a few of her own masterpieces. You must know that she repeats them over and over and over, sometimes getting louder, sometimes quieter.

Barbie, Barbie, BARBIE

I LOVE Winter, I love WINTER, I love winter

About banas (trying to say bananas), About banas, about banas

And finally my favorite, heard this morning when asking her to clean up so that her friend Hannah could come to play:

Mommy is not very nice to me, Mommy is not very nice to me, Mommy is NOT very NICE to ME!!!!!

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Sad Day


Today, January 7th, 2010, I lay to rest my blanket. This blanket has gone everywhere with me for nearly 28 years. My mom and Grandmom made it for me when I was born and it has truly been loved, as is evidenced by the pictures. The batting has been replaced several times. Yes, you can see through it in some places. I am always cold and this blanket no longer provides the warmth that I require in a blanket. I also keep putting my feet in the holes. Hopefully this new one will be warm and soft enough to fulfill my blanket needs. Rest In Peace sweet blanket.

Yes, that is a very large hole in the middle of the blanket.

The new blanket.